Happy birthday to me :)

I'm just here at home, in Davao, lazying the whole day. Still on my Prison Break marathon since Sunday. The bad news is, the (pirated) DVD is only up to episode 15 of the second season. GREAAAAAAAAAT! Now, I'm itching to watch the rest of the season. But where the heck will I get it at this hour?!? Anyway, I'll just watch the rest of the episodes when I'm back in Manila.

Anyway, my 28th birthday is pretty quiet except for the birthday phone calls and messages :) Even though I haven't rested because of the Prison Break marathon, at least I did not spend it alone in Manila. At least, I was with my family for a change. I last spent my birthday with them when I was 16. When I was still in fourth year high school. Man, that was yeaaaaaaaaaaars ago. I feel old. Not that old, but old. Like what Ate Corina said, I'm in my late 20s. Haha :)

I'm just not good at handling my birthdays. If I could just skip that day, I would. I don't mind the plus one in my age, I just don't want to experience that day. Yeah, weird of me. I have what they call the "birthday blues." Haha :)

I can say that I'm happy now because I know I'm a better person. What I've experienced when I was 27 was like a crash course on love and accelerated levels on life. Though it took me almost a year to get over Pol, at least I'm very thankful for all the things I learned during and after my relationship with him. He may never be able to forgive me and he may never want to be my friend again, but I'm very faithful about it. I've been asking God to let me have a boyfriend for years but he didn't grant it immediately. I was very patient about it. But when He gave me Pol, I totally forgot to bring Him in the relationship. I still don't know why how could I have not done so. It was taught in my theology and philosophy lessons. I've read it in magazines over and over. I've watched it on TV gazillion times. Yet, it was one thing I didn't do.

Yet God was the very first one I turned to when Pol left me. When the grieving took a lot out of me, God was there to comfort me. When I was crying in the dark for hours and in my sleep, God made sure I woke up to a brand new day. And of course, friends were there. They made sure I was not harming myself. That I was not sulking in the corner of my bed. That I was not crying in my office cubicle late at night. And my favorite vodka made sure I was physically numb and tired to think of Pol.

The better me is very excited about having a new relationship, even though I still have no idea with whom I will that have with. I'm excited because I know I'm bringing God with me this time. That God will be the center of the relationship. You may think I've gone super religious, but that's what I have learned from being faithful towards the situation.

The past year at work has been very good. I got promoted to the managerial level. Yeah! :) Though before reaching that, I was already on the brink of leaving the company I was with ever since I left college. I had low morale because my officemates were leaving, too much politics and the itch for more money. That coupled with my heartache, were enough to drive me nuts. I knew I had to focus on fixing one problem first because I knew will not be able to handle it. Since I knew Pol will not remotely be friends with me, I decided to fix my work life. I submitted resumes left and right. I had interviews before going to work. But still, here I am, working for ABSi. Bored with what I'm doing, but here I am, still working at my 7-year relationship with ABSi. And I think I'm here to stay. Nah, I don't have issues with loyalty =p

So that sums up my 27th year :) You'll never know, I might be excited to celebrate my 29th birthday next year with this new disposition that I have. Again, happy birthday to me :)