I want to cry right now. People borrow money from me, as if I don't need the money too. As if I don't have bills to pay like rent, water, electricity, labandera, etc. They ask me to pasa-load to them or ask me to call them and talk for a lengthy time, as if I don't pay for my own phone bill. I don't even have savings to speak of, for crying out loud. I buy clothes in the ukay-ukay shops just so I can have "new" clothes to wear in the office. My weekend lunch costs P35 only. Even if it tastes really bad, or I'm so sawa with what I'm eating, I eat it, just so I can spend a little more on myself when I'm in the office.

But its really not fair when a person borrows a huge amount from you, but an hour after you agreed to lend the person the money, you hear the person say "Tara order tayo sa Amazon." Ugh! It's not just right at the moment. Some other day I guess, but not on the same afternoon. If the person only knew that the money I lent is all I have in my ATM. Sigh.

Not because I'm single means I don't have bills to pay. Or that I have savings. I live on a per payday basis. I wanna lug around a poster or placard which says "I'm poor. Don't borrow money from me." Heck! I can't even afford to buy a new TV or a new electric fan. Jeez. And they have the guts to borrow money from me.

I know its my fault too because I can't say no to my friends. You know me, I want to help people. Because I believe in good karma. That when the time comes I'm gonna need the money, they will let me borrow also. But I'm afraid that will not be the case. Sigh. I want to cry.